A journey of Bi-sexual married man
Hi, This is the story of 43 years old man about his kinky and bi-sexual life. He never shared it with anyone and would like to share it with everyone now. I was, and have always been, attracted to women. I fell in love with them only in the last few years. I also got attracted towards dicks. I never got attracted to any men’s appearance. But yes, their dicks always did something to me. While watching straight porn, I enjoyed watching couples, but dicks were my turn-on. I feel this has to do with my teenage experiences. When I was 19, I went with my cousin to his friend’s home. His friend was very bold and started to change in front of us. I was surprised to see his young hairy dick. I liked it, but that was a one-time experience, and I never thought about it. I also remember the same cousin who was 3-4 years elder than me. He came to my house when my parents were at work. We used to play WWF, and at that time, he used to jump on me. He laid on me, and I never understood his intentions then. But when I think now, he used to touch his dick on me. He was enjoying the touch between us. I feel I was innocent or may have enjoyed it too. But I don’t remember it now. While growing up, I met many girls and women. I had some sexual experiences with them. During that period, I hated gay or bi people. My first experience was when my hostel roommate tried to kiss my lips. But I jumped away and ignored it. But after a few months, he tried to touch my dick while sleeping. Then I let him masturbate my dick. During that time, I also did the same to him. But after that, I just hated it. I told him not to do it again, and he never did. Then after college, I fell in love with a girl. We were sexually active as she was one of the rarest kinky girls I have ever met. She was loving but open and always wanted to experiment with something new. During that relationship, we tried everything. Once during foreplay, she started to put her finger in my ass. At first, I felt a bit awkward, but I liked it. But in shame, I asked her to stop. Later she asked me if I liked it or not. I was worried about saying yes as well. I was worried that she might think otherwise. So I kept quiet. But she insisted I tell her, and I said, “Yes, I liked it, but don’t you think this is gay?” She laughed and said, “You are crazy. This is not gay. Many girls like anal, and there is nothing wrong if you like it too. You are a lucky guy who has another point of pleasure.” I was smiling, but that was also making me horny. The next time we met, she licked my ass hole and put one finger inside. That made me crazy, and I cum like anything. This made her very happy. We were so much in love due to open communication between us as well. We both were kinky and experimental. Our relationship lasted a few years, but we couldn’t get married due to family issues. After a few years, I married a conservative girl who thought sex was just for reproduction. She hated oral sex. I tried many times to lick her or ask her to suck. But she hated it and considered it a dirty job for both of us. I became very open-minded from my previous relationship. But my married life disappointed me. As my wife is very caring, I adjusted my sexual needs. Life was very normal till she got pregnant. During that period, I craved sex and used to watch porn. I don’t know how I started to get attracted to dicks again. While watching them, I somehow craved the touch. It may be due to my teenage/hostel memories. But I was regularly thinking about it. So, I started to explore gay/bi sites/apps and found the Grindr app, which was very new to me. During my wife’s pregnancy, she was with her parents, and I was in my city. One day, I was drunk and horny. So I started exploring the app and found someone near my home. I was excited but very scared too, as anyone can come to know. Still, I started to talk with him. He was 21 years old boy living as a PG with one of his friends. I asked and took some information to decide whether I must meet. He told me that he was alone and I could come to his room. I was drunk and horny, so I decided to take a chance. I slowly started walking towards his location as a stranger. I wanted to see who he was. If I liked and felt comfortable, I would say ‘Hi.’. Else I will move on as there were a lot of other people walking. When I reached his location, I saw him standing on the balcony. I found him very sincere, so I waved, and he came down. He was very respectable, and I asked him to walk together and talk. We walked like two friends and asked questions of each other. When satisfied, he asked me if I wanted to come to his room. I said OK and followed him. I was very nervous but excited too, as he was 20 years younger than me. He gave me a cold drink. We were both looking at each other, shy and waiting for the first initiative. I don’t know what happened to me. I approached him and put my hand on his dick which was already hard. I pressed it, opened his zipper and put my hand inside. I had never touched any young dick before. It was a good size, erect. Then I sat between his legs and dropped his underwear. I was so desperate to put it into my mouth. Still, inside, I was very scared. What if he blackmails me after the act or tell to other people? Due to that, I was not enjoying myself much. When I put his dick into my mouth, I didn’t feel much enjoyment. I tried to suck, but he stopped me as my teeth hurt him. I told him this was my first time, and I didn’t know how to do it. He said that’s OK, let’s talk. Then we talked for some time, and I left his place. I remained scared for many days, but in the end, all went OK. My first experience was not good due to my fear. I kept thinking about it to enjoy it to the fullest and tried talking to many people on the app. But many were desperate and scary, and I couldn’t take the initiative. After a few days, I met with another young guy.