Forbidden Love
I have known him for a long time. He was introduced to me by my boyfriend at the time. They worked together at a company in Bangalore and sat side by side at their computers. My relationship with my boyfriend was an online one and I thought it would go far. His friend quickly became my best friend. But then the relationship between my boyfriend and I began to fall apart and one day split completely. My best friend and I continued on with our relationship even through the end of his and my X’s. Soon after he moved to another company in Bangalore which ill keep quiet. I will call him raja because he is truly the king of my heart. We will call me Elanor. Anyway I am Elanor. I am five one with extremely white skin, dark brown eyes and auburn hair. I am approximately 38-32-40. I am not fat, but extremely well per portioned. I am American and live in the south eastern United States. I have been involved with a man by the name of Adi for about 8 months, and Raja has been engaged for a couple of months. Things have not been going well between Raja and his fiance nor have things been well between Adi and me. It has been becoming increasingly obvious to me (and Raja) that our relationships that we are in are not what we should have. The ones we love do not love us in kind. I came to realize a long time ago that even though Raja is my best friend, I have a love for him that remains dormant. Running in the background of our entire relationship. This morning I woke after having a very disturbing dream of us, and what woke me up was a call from him. Call it destiny or what ever all I can think about at the moment is my dream. I thought to share it. Raja and I are both foodies. We have joked many times about me coming to visit and bringing him his favorite pizza to work. It is high time I make my first trip to India so what better reason than to take him Pizza right. So I show up and ask the receptionist to let him know that he has a visitor. I have timed my arrival at such a time that I know he will be ready to take a break. I wait for him in the cafeteria. When he walks in the look of shock on his face is delicious. I have waited to see it for so long. There are no words between us, he just walks up to me and takes me into his arms. I have waited what seems like an eternity to feel them around me. Being the food nut that he his he smells the pizza and pulls away from me. His smile can light up the room. Of course it would be barbecue chicken pizza that would take him away :) We sit down to the pizza and over it discuss my trip to Bangalore and my reason for coming. He asks where I’m staying and I inform him that my flight package included a hotel. We had always discussed me staying with him so he seems a little bummed. I tell him that I don’t want to cause gossip in his building so if he wants he can take a mini vacation and stay with me. After a moments hesitation he agrees. I give him directions to my hotel and let him get back to work. I go back to the hotel and my mind is dizzy with him, and the feeling of being in his arms. I can’t believe I am here. I don’t want to seduce him, but God how I want this man. I think its mutual but how am I ever going to find out without letting my own feelings be known. I go ahead and take a shower. I imagine the water running down over my body being his fingers and mouth. I am on fire. I am getting into my fantasy when a knock comes at the bathroom door. Oh God, he’s here and I left my clothes in the other room. I have no choice but to wrap myself in a towel and go retrieve my clothes. You should see the look on his face when I exit the bathroom in nothing but a towel. I laugh and tell him to turn around. Rummaging through my suitcase I find clothes for the evening, I return to the bathroom to change. I know his eyes were on me as I walked away. This is NOT how I had planned this. After dressing I apologize for the awkwardness of the situation and he puts his hand on my cheek and tells me it’s quite alright. I am pulled towards him staring into his eyes. His eyes are begging me to kiss him but I am still afraid. I want to know its more than physical attraction. I don’t want to loose my best friend over one night of passion. I smile and ask him what is on the agenda for the day. He replies that he’s going to show me everything he’s always wanted to. It’s a kind of vague description but I am at his command. Throughout the day we eat wonderful food, and visit amazing places. In the evening we take in a movie, Hindi for me, and its amazing sitting next to him finally watching one. I glance over at him only to find him looking at me. After the film he asks if Id like to have a drink before we head back to the hotel. I say sure and he takes me to a local disco. It’s noisy and awesome. He buys me a drink and its warmth spreads through me quickly. My mind gets fuzzy and asks if he would like to dance. He takes me in his arms and I feel like I am home again. He runs his hands through my hair and says he likes the way it smells and buries his face in it. My arms tighten around his neck; I can’t be close enough to him. Near my ear he whispers I love you Elanor. I step back slightly and laugh historically. He looks confused so I say that I’m in love with you too. Taking my cheeks in his hands he lowers his lips to mine. The kiss makes me weak and he grabs me and holds me up. Our kiss deepens and all space between us disappears. He looks at me and says he thinks its time for us to go. We try and behave on the cab ride back to the hotel but our fingers keep playing over one another’s bare skin. Mine on his arms, his over my cheeks n neck. We return to the hotel and walk soberly in and go straight to my room. Once inside he asks if I’m sure this is what I want. I reply as long as he realizes it’s not a one time thing. That I want him as my love and no other. He says that’s the only way he have it.