My Love Story - Part 1
Hai everyone. This is Preethi (name changed). I am not a regular reader of this site. I just came to know about it a few months before. I would like to narrate my life incidents and it’s completely real. First of all this is not a story related to only sex but about a girl’s feelings, fears of having sex. Please be patient while reading this story. And I welcome all the comments. Forgive me for all the mistakes I have made while writing this story. Ok coming to me I am a beautiful girl of age 28 with fair complexion and height 5.5 with stats 34-26 -36. I am from Pune .it has been 2 yrs since marriage. My husband is Neeraj age 30 with height 5.11. I and my Husband have a great life as we love each other and I forgot to tell ours is a love marriage. Coming to the story my parents used to live in a village nearby. Due to my studies I went to my uncle’s house and I have to stay there for 4 years to complete my schooling and I was 12yrs then. At first my uncle used to be good but later on there was a change in the behavior of my uncle. I don’t know anything about sex at that tender age but his behavior with me is not good. I am very uncomfortable with his touch like he used to touch my private parts like breasts , buttocks, and pinch on my waist and he used to do all these things only when I am alone and not in the presence of others. At that time I felt nervous and uncomfortable and not knowing what to do and 1 day I found that he was seeing me when I change my dress and in the night wantedly he used to put his hands over me and smooches and all. Finally I used to avoid him as much as possible. I was 18 then he tried to molest me but somehow I escaped. I don’t want to reveal this to any other family members. But after that my behavior is changed. I used to be with books whole time. Finally my exams were completed but at that time my uncle was afraid that I may reveal all the things he then told my parents that I am in love with some guy at school and I am talking to him over the phone. I used to be friendly with all that’s it and nothing more than that. But my parents did not listen to me they scolded me. After that I have to go to college so I went to Mumbai for my college. At first there was other uncle in Mumbai. I was asked to stay at their place. But I am afraid of my past consequences and I joined in the hostel. In the beginning I used to be depressed but after a year or so I got good buddies. I went to my friend’s house after all the exams and there for the first time I saw a sex video and that’s how I came to know what and how sex happens. But in that video it was the girls 1st time so she was bleeding while having sex and I am afraid and I shouted at my friend and I cried like hell on seeing that. At the end of my graduation a guy proposed me and I liked him I mean I used to have a good opinion on him I also accepted we are of same college but of different branch. At first everything went well but later on things changed. He used to be so close to me like he used to touch me as he likes without my consent but I felt uncomfortable. It’s common for lovers to hug and kiss these days but I could not accept that. May be that is because of my past incidents even we are lovers I never allowed him to touch me as I am uncomfortable he also stayed away but as the days pass he used to hug me or he tried to kiss me forcibly and his behavior was changed completely. I told him that I am not ready to it and also told my past experiences to him. One day I went to his room for some work and he forcibly threw me on bed and tried to kiss me but I resisted and I said I am not ready for it. After that every day he used to torture me like hell and used to harass me in every way possible so that I may agree to have sex with him. But I don’t know why the thought of sex and that kind of touches I used to hate them. I didn’t agree and I said I wanted to breakup. After that I am very afraid of sex and a negative impact was developed in me on sex due to the harassments I faced in the past from my uncle because it’s like hell to stay that many years at their house later on the video that I have seen in my friend’s house and during my graduation my friend got married and she told me that sex is so painful and she used to become restless, tired and weak after having sex. I used to have nightmares. All these had a deep impact on my mind that I started to hate relationships as I also thought all boys need only sex from girls nothing more than that. I completed my studies and got a job. I am not happy I used to be like a dead person going to office and coming to my flat and talking to nobody rather than work issues. Even I am in good position I used to physically smile. One day I went for a walk in the evening there somebody called me asking are you ok? And I turned back and found my colleague neeraj(name changed). He was 2 yrs senior to me at work and holds a good position in my team I said I am ok with a fake smile. He then asked me if he could talk to me for some time if I am free I said its ok. He then asked me “why do you prefer to be alone always?” . I said “nothing like that I will have work when you guys plan something and I couldn’t make it then (he knows that I never even come to my team outings, lunch etc.)”. For that he said “oh kk then you yourself plan some outing when you r free and we all will join(said smiling)” Me: ok sure And later he talked about something about work and left and I came to my flat. After that day he used to talk to me daily over some issues and later on slowly we used to have lunch and coffee together in the office I got a good friend he introduced his friends to me and sometimes I used go out for a walk with him and we used talk over many things. We grew close that sometimes we used to have dinner outside and I must say he never crossed his limits. After that he got he was promoted but transferred to Bangalore.