The discreet affair in Seattle
Hi ISS readers, I am Krish. I am 40 and an executive working and settled in Seattle (USA). I am a loving husband and a father of a young son, but I am so tired of living this monotonous life. I long for sexual gratification, but I also intend to ensure some stability for my family, too. That’s where I met Kanika, a 38-year-old woman in pursuit of a sexual interest. She’s 38, clever, self-assured, and pretty. We understood each other on the spot, and both had an alignment to keep things discreet. She did not want to risk her family commitments for a scintilla of happiness that we both were chasing. We had an instant spark – not to mention one we couldn’t ignore. It got started with a paid discreet extramarital affair site in the US. One day at work, I was bored and frustrated, so I logged into one of the extramarital affair dating sites. Within minutes, I was on a profile called Kanika, and we were talking about similar interests, like me, in our profiles. I asked her in a random manner through the premium message, “What are you looking for in men here?” The response came almost instantly. “I crave a man who takes control. Someone who knows what he wants and isn’t afraid to take it.” Reading it twice, the words coursed through my veins. “Control, huh? I can handle that,” I said. I kept thinking about it. How far was too far? I took a deep breath then typed, “What constitutes being ‘taken’ for you?” I tossed in a winking emoji, thinking, ‘What if she doesn’t respond? What if she does?’ Then her reply popped onto my screen, “Blindfolded. Hands tied behind my back. Helpless.” The words were blunt, deliberate, and my penis reacted to them before my brain could. This was more than flirting. “And what would you want me to do while you’re … helpless?” I typed the words, weighing the weight of every letter. “How far would I go depending on the team I’m tangoing with?” I responded with anticipation that she would disclose more to me. A few seconds later, she started posting her picture to me via the album share feature of the dating app. In the photo, Kanika was lying on her bed, soft and inviting as she splayed out her curves. A silk scarf was tied around her eyes, the fabric stark against her skin. Her breasts were full, nipples taut, and the shadows between her legs hinted at something I couldn’t stop staring at. I zoomed in my lens and tracked the lines of her body with my eyes, my breath catching in my throat. My penis pushed up against my slacks, the fabric suddenly too tight, too restricting. Just then, the reminder of the work meeting popped up on my desktop, and I knew it – I needed to go to work, with a nice apology to Kanika and a commitment that we will continue to talk. I completed the meetings very late at night, but still had the picture of Kanika, blindfolded and vulnerable, etched into my memory. The silk scarf, exposed skin, invitation to take control – all over again. When I reached home and entered the shower, and shut my eyes, attempting to drown out Kanika’s body, but it didn’t help. Her face with a blindfold on, her parted lips, her hips bent; it burned into my mind. Finished showering, I went to sleep next to my wife, who was in deep sleep, but I couldn’t stop thinking about how I had been flirting with Kanika. I quietly logged into the dating app and found her online. I messaged her to open up again and be flirtatious, “I missed you a little bit in my day.” “A little bit?” In her playful tone, she asked. “Or a lot?” I could almost imagine her leaning back in her chair, smirking and daring me honestly. I closed my eyes, breathing heavily, deeply, almost before I knew it was an answer that she had chosen. “Okay, a lot,” I typed. “What now?” The message came, and I froze. Her reply pierced all the tension. “Now, you tell me what you really want.” I flinched. And the question hung there, heavy and dangerous. My wife moved next to me, her hand grazing mine, in sleep. I pulled away, guilt stabbing at me all of a sudden. The excitement of this, the secrecy, the forbidden – it was already pulling me in. I typed quickly, “I want to see you. I want to touch you. I want to taste you.” I stopped, then said, “I want to fuck you as though I have to because my marriage depends on it.” The long silence was thick and stifling, and I waited for her response. I felt I could not breathe anymore. Then the screen lit, and her reply was instantaneous, like a flash in the dark. “Good,” she wrote. “Now we’re getting somewhere.” I looked at the screen. I could see my heart racing, and knew I could never turn back. Her message blared across my screen, slicing through the darkness like a knife. “Tell me,” she wrote in a daring tone, “what exactly you want to do when you taste me.” Now, I swallowed hard, the question on my mind. My wife moved beside me, holding her breath. I looked at her, then at the screen, my fingers shaking as I typed. “I want to taste every inch of you now,” I replied, words flowing out more quickly than I might have dared to think of. “Starting with your neck, those soft little hairs at the base – then your shoulders…” I paused, heart pounding, thinking whether to go too far. But her reply came rather quickly, and that fiery word lit something primal in me. “Down to my breasts,” she said, her voice a low murmur in my brain. “Tell me about my breasts, Krish.” I paused; my mouth was dry, thoughts were running all over the place. How exactly could I say what I’d only imagined? “They’re perfect,” I typed, deleting and retyping until it felt perfect. “The perfect handful. I want to have them in my hands, to press gently, to tease your nipples until they’re hard.” My jaw closed as I slammed ‘Send,’ the truth hanging in the air like a confession.