The Woman Within
By : Beast Of The Fall [email protected] Hi all, My name is Rohit. I would like to narrate my story here all your feedback can be sent to me at the above e-mail address. Since the time I was still teenager, I think I was attracted to the idea of being a girl. I used to spend my alone time fantasizing about being a girl and the things that I would do if I was one. I think I even prayed for a while to be magically transformed into one but alas, it wasn’t enough. I always used to take the first opportunity to dress up in my sister’s clothes and wear makeup whenever I was alone. Though it was not perfect in the beginning, I slowly perfected the art of applying makeup and dressing myself up. I continued to dress myself up right up until I finished high school. After high school, the circumstances were bad and I had to find some work. I moved to another Chennai and got a job there in a very reputed call centre. The pay was great and I was enjoying life in the big city. I was living alone at this time in a cosy and comfortable 1 bedroom apartment. It gave me all the privacy I needed. Slowly as things began to improve on the home front due to my efforts, I reduced the stress that I was taking and started to loosen up. Now I had all the time in the world. Slowly I started buying up clothes – saris, salwars, frilly, beautiful tops, tights jeans, half-saris, long skirts etc. I also bought makeup and a beautiful, expensive wig (my hair was still short). I started cross dressing at home almost every day. Every session was elaborate and grand. I was very much in love with myself and the world as a whole. One day, while browsing online, it struck me that I was alone in the city and I was virtually anonymous. I could maybe meet up with someone who would treat me like a girl, who was comfortable with me, the way I was-if only for a night. I started yearning and craving for male company. I signed up and created accounts in a numbers of adult sites and in Yahoo Messenger, Initially, the response was really bad. I was abused online, people called me bad words and I almost gave up when one day there was an email in my Inbox. It was from a guy who had read my Facebook Profile (I had created one exclusively for this purpose). He introduced himself as Rajeev from Chennai. He said that he was the Chief Technology Architect of one of the leading IT companies in India. It seems that he was on the look out for someone just like me and was interested in meeting up. He mentioned both his Phone number and his Address in the mail. The way his mail was worded made me curious. I decided to give it a try. Very cautious, on a Thursday evening, I called him on his mobile. He was extremely polite and courteous. He was a gentleman in every respect. He said that he was 38 years old and was never married. He was very straight forward and eager to meet up. We scheduled a meeting for the next day to meet at Taj Coromandel for lunch. The following day, I reached there at the designated time. He was waiting for me at the lobby. We had a fun filled lunch. He was easy going, humorous and fun to be with. He kept showering me with a lot of compliments. I was shy and very happy at the same time. After lunch, he asked me if he could drop me home. I agreed. On the drive back we talked about our jobs, life, likes and dislikes and everything else under the sun. It seemed like we’d known each other for ages. Once we reached my apartment, I asked him if he wanted to come in. He agreed and we went to my apartment. He loved the way I had decorated and maintained my apartment. We sat down and had a couple of drinks and talked about this and that. Out of the blue, he asked me whether I liked him. I said “Of course, Rajeev”. Rajeev replied, “From the time I read your profile, I’ve been attracted to you. At that time I thought it was just a fancy of mine but when I saw you today, I was blown away.” I said, “Don’t make fun of me Rajeev. I know I’m not one of the best looking guys around”. To which he said, “Who said anything about being a guy. You have to be the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen.”. I was shocked, “Oh Come on Rajeev. Stop kidding around.” Rajeev – Honestly Rohit. I’m telling you the truth. I’ve been dying to take you in my arms and treat you like you really should be treated.” I was speechless. All that I wanted was gradually unfolding before me. Seeing my silence, Rajeev requested “If I may, and only if you are Ok with it, can u dress up for me; I’d like to see you in your true glory”. I smiled and reluctantly agreed. “Rajeev, this will be the first time that I’d be coming dressed as a girl in front of someone. I’m a little nervous.” “Don’t be. I already like you a lot. Nothing you can do can turn me back now.” I said Ok. Give me 20 mins. He agreed. I went into my room leaving him in the hall. I went to the bathroom and started applying hair removal cream all over and 10 minutes later got rid of all the unwanted hair. I had a bath and came out. I was feeling wonderful. I picked a black lacey bra and a matching panty. I wore them and adjusted my chest to get a small cleavage. Once that was done, I took out a red saree and a matching blouse. As I put those on, I couldnt but help thinking as to what was going to happen today. I was literally living in my dream. Once I wore the sari, I wore the wig correctly and started applying makeup. Once satisfied that it was perfect, I sashayed a couple of times in front of the mirror. Oh! What a wonderful feeling.I knocked on the door and told Rajeev that I was about to come out. Rajeev said he was ready. I opened the door and stepped out. There he was sitting with his mouth wide open. “You cannot be the person who went inside”, he said. “You are truly beautiful. Come here come sit next to me.” And I went. He started kissing me slowly all over my face and neck. I was enjoying myself immensely.